Today, the issue of trust was brought up in my sculpture class. Boy!! Did that hit home!!!! Ouch!!
Well...it's like this. You see, my second wife made it very clear to me that she was half Jewish which she took as a source of pride. I think that's great because people should have a little pride in their ethnic background...or maybe no pride at all...drawing from Spencer and Coco here. Regardless...I loved her dearly and during one of those intimate moments after an intimate thing, she asked me what the most important thing in a marriage is...I replied; "Love" (and that means real love not romantic love or lust...etc...). I asked her the same and she replied "Trust." So I gave her my complete trust...ha, ha, ha!!! This has been great material for me to laugh at myself in the mirror ever since!! Oh...what a complete fool I was.
She left me while still pregnant and used extortion to get everything she wanted in the divorce. She resorted to lies, manipulation and hired an anti-government attorney. I'll never forget her words after one of our intimate moments: "How do like knowing we just had *%$*&^ without birth control?" Being a dumb Norwegian, I just laughed and thought: "Oh...she loves me so much that she wants to have our baby!!" WRONG!!! After she had left me in a couple months, I found her attorney's business card in some of her old belongings. I also consulted a military attorney who proceeded to inform me that I had been set up. I couldn't even comprehend it!!! Are people really that evil, cunning and premeditated??!! I pondered this for years.
She also said she wished our baby was entirely Jewish instead of 3/4 Norwegian. I have to explain here that she is also half Norwegian. She stated over the phone that she was worried our baby was going to be some kind of freak, she also completely fucked with my other son's head. He was a vulnerable, teenage boy at the time...from my first marriage.
As she continued to berate my Norwegian heritage and uphold her Jewish heritage, I just sat and took it like a good airman should. Yes, you see...we airman are "Knights of The Air" and we are never allowed to forget that. So, I saw the greater good for the child was to simply let the mother have her way. It turns out that he is now 15, very imaginative, and wonderful young man. Now he wants to get to know me and she just wrote me a letter saying she wouldn't make things difficult or be a pain in the ass. I have considered but...unfortunately...she killed my trust and probably killed my other son who is addicted to heroin.
Below, I have put a you tube on "The Real Heroes of Telemark." Do any half or full blood Jews or Israelies ever stop and wonder about a group of Norwegian commandos who did what no one else could? In WW2, these Norwegians took out a plant the NAZIs were using to try and develop heavy water for a nuclear weapon. They even had to kill some of their own countrymen who were on a ferry carrying heavy water. Had the NAZIs succeeded in building a nuke, it is likely my half Jewish second wife would not be here today. I wonder...when she was berating Norwegians...was she aware of this??
I hold nothing against her but I do not trust her. Trust is something forged through common struggle...military folks trust each other...I wonder if her answer should have been love... because love is the only power worth having when dealing with people. I do still love her...just like the Norwegian commandos loved the people they were saving by helping destroy an evil regime.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aUfiMoY30ac
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